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I am married to Basilio Ruiz and thank God daily for bringing this wonderful man back into my life. I am a Christian mom of 4 (the youngest 3 are still at home with me) Ashleigh is 22, Amanda is 17, Joshua & Jeremy are 13. I am an independent CTMH consultant and love sharing the art of scrapbooking, cardmaking, and papercrafting with others.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Today is the day

That we put Rex on the plane for Florida.

I have very mixed feelings. I am glad for him that he will be with family that can help care for him. I am sad for my children who will miss him. I am dreading the ride back home from the airport after my children say goodbye to him. I am sad that 18 plus years of marriage ended this way because of drugs. I am angry because I don't understand addiction............... I still believe he had a choice and he made the wrong one. I wish we had meant enough to him for him to be able to stop using for us. I am hopeful for my future and praying hard for my children


Sanna F said...

Hugs to you and your children!!!!

Terrillyn said...

I'm so sorry that things ended this way. You and your children are in my prayers.

Shawna Bates said...

Sounds like it was a sad day for your household yesterday. i'm sorry to hear that. Closing a chapter and saying goodbye is never an easy thing to do.
But one thing I want to mention to you, I know that it feels like Rex chose the drugs over you and your family, and in some aspects he did. But when you have a drug addiction, the drugs choose for you. Now I'm not saying that this makes what Rex did right. It's not by no means at all!! And he still knows right from wrong. But what I am saying, is that an addiction is not at all an easy thing to over come. Especially drugs, and especially if it was a hard drug like crank, coke,meth..etc..Those drugs take over your life without a person even realizing that they have completely submitted themselves to it. I've been down this road with a very special person myself. He even blew up a meth lab and burned his body and still ended up going back to it and spending time in jail! It is a very hard situation for you to forgive I know. Been there can't say as I myself am fully over it.
Hopefully where Rex is going he will be getting great help and will over come this addiction. In a nutshell what I'm trying to say is don't dismiss the fact that Rex didn't love you or the kids, he made bad choices, and if he is able to get healed he will realize how wrong his was. But it takes these drug addicts to get on the right road for real, not the "I'm done with drugs, HONEST" but really still doing them undercover (been there too).
It may be too late to mend broken fences for the two of you, but a genuine apology once he's healed wlll go a long way in your heart.
Keep your chin up and keep your faith.

Just a simple gal said...

Well said - please know you're in my prayers ~J

Lisa J. said...

Oh Peggy I am so sorry for your hurt! Maybe now you can get some true closure for yourself!! If that is possible. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers!! As is your children.