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I am married to Basilio Ruiz and thank God daily for bringing this wonderful man back into my life. I am a Christian mom of 4 (the youngest 3 are still at home with me) Ashleigh is 22, Amanda is 17, Joshua & Jeremy are 13. I am an independent CTMH consultant and love sharing the art of scrapbooking, cardmaking, and papercrafting with others.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Monday, Monday

This weekend was a good weekend. All 3 of the kids went to visit their dad and had lots of fun with him. I am always so happy for everyone when visitation goes well.

I also got up the courage to ask Rex if he was ready to sit somewhere other than with me in church, making it clear to the children that they could sit with whoever they wanted. Things have been so up and down and tension filled with Rex and I that I just find myself unable to focus during worship anymore. To my surprise (and his credit) he graciously agreed that he would be fine sitting somewhere else and said he wanted me to be able to focus my heart and mind where they needed to be during worship. It felt like the music, scripture, and sermon were speaking directly to me and for the first time in a long time I left feeling rested and re-energized. Grateful to Marc for helping me to realize that this was ok for me to ask for and not totally selfish.

Today I finish the final prep for a gathering in Weston tomorrow. The hostess is someone I met at my open crops and the guests will all be new to me. I am excited just listening to how excited and enthused my hostess is and looking forward to a totally fun time tomorrow


Melisa Jo said...

Good job Peggy. I like to see that you are able to give yourself a little something, even if it is difficult. You need that time for you and so glad he was able to give it to you.

PeggyS said...

thanks, it took pastor Marc and a couple of the elders to convince me that it was ok to set these boundaries and that Rex's reaction to them is NOT my responsibility to bear. Finally understanding this to be true has set me free from the last bit of control he had over me. it feels like a huge burden lifted to finally get this.