Life's twists and turns

Wow! It has been a long time since I posted to my blog. It seems to have been replaced by facebook. Now, don't get me wrong.... I love facebook. I have connected with many old and dear friends and family that I might never have found otherwise. I love playing silly little games like cafe world to take my mind of the serious things in my life. I love that in a matter of minutes I can catch up on little tidbits of news from several friends at once. But, looking through a friend's blog today, I realized I miss the stories and details read on their blogs that don't make it into the limited space status messages on facebook.

So, for those of you who don't know it, my big and somewhat surprising news is that I am .......... engaged! Who would have thought after having my heart broken into so many pieces that anything (or anyone) could have healed it enough to love and trust again. And yet God once again has given me a most precious gift. His name is Basilio Ruiz. We have known eachother forever..... passing in and out of eachother's lives over the years. And then, much to my dismay he came to me with the idea that maybe we were meant to be more to eachother than just friends. I without hesitation told him to run far away in the opposite direction because I believed I was so fundamentally and permanently broken that I could only bring him pain. Lucky for me he had more faith in me than I did and worked to slowly earn my trust in a totally new and different way. Then came THE day. The day he first asked to kiss me and (thankfully) did so without waiting for my permission. I would have said no... was ready to say no. I'm so thankful he didn't give me the chance to say no. That kiss was the completion and the beginning of so much for me. I knew in my heart that God meant this man for me. How I could be so sure of this when I had been so easily fooled in the past I did not know. I only knew it was so. I am not some teenager but when he kisses me my heart soars, when he wraps his arms around me I feel safe and loved, When he speaks to me of our future I know without a doubt that what he speaks is true. When I watch him with the children, see them look at him with love and hear them tell him that they love him my heart swells until I think it may burst. I did not believe I could ever know joy like this again. I love this man!