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I am married to Basilio Ruiz and thank God daily for bringing this wonderful man back into my life. I am a Christian mom of 4 (the youngest 3 are still at home with me) Ashleigh is 22, Amanda is 17, Joshua & Jeremy are 13. I am an independent CTMH consultant and love sharing the art of scrapbooking, cardmaking, and papercrafting with others.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Stepping out in Faith: a personal post

Sometimes so hard to do but so very worth it in the end. I can still remember how absolutely terrified I was 2 years ago that I would not be able to take care of my children on my own when I made the decision to end my marriage. And God was so faithful in placing people in our lives that would do and be just what we needed when we needed it. I am still in awe as I look back at the path we have walked over the last 2 years and finally feel like we are emerging on the other side of the mountain. I have absolutely no doubts that I made the right choice. Am I sad sometimes? Yes but not in the way I thought I would be. I don't ever find myself wishing my marriage back. Sometimes I find myself regretting that I did not make the choice to end it sooner.

Another huge step for me was being able to forgive both Rex and myself for mistakes made and pain caused. I spent so many years thinking it was MY responsibility to make HIM happy. I now can see that I was enabling but not helping. I am able to step back and try to do the right things to maintain a friendship for the sake of the children but feel no need or resonsibility to "fix" him anymore. This is huge for me!

Another huge step has been making new friendships and TRUSTING the people I am making them with.

and here is one of my all time favorite songs by Matt Redman

You Never Let Go Lyrics

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

(Chorus)

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

2 comments:

Lisa J. said...

So glad things are looking up for you Peggy! I think about you often!

PeggyS said...

thanks Lisa :-)